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Change your future.

You must train your intuition – you must trust the small voice inside you which tells you exactly what to say, what to decide

Ingrid Bergman

The past few days, OK weeks, have been a test of trusting my intuition. Trust is not an easy thing and add intuition to the equation can be daunting (for me). Making this decision has been hard and I listened to the small voice inside to discover the answer, but I will tell you what it said later. The huge discovery I made for myself is that instead of age giving me wisdom (which in some ways did) it gave me a huge dose of anxiety. Anxiety, that old evil friend ego, kills, numbing the intuition and rendering us helpless in the ever turning cycle of fear. Yuk! When I was in my twenties I made decision based on gut feelings, they were second nature, so what went wrong? Life and a bunch of big hits which shook my trust in things and in the way the world works. It has been a journey of self discovery and has reawakened things from my younger years, lessons learned but thankfully do not need to go through again. The one lesson is no matter what your age you are able to keep discovering new and wonderful facets about the world and yourself. Your dreams and visions are important. Do not ever give up on yourself and trust the voice inside, even if you think it is absolutely off the wall.

So over the past several now weeks I have been troubled over what I should do. I am a believer in signs, in my gut (though I did forget how to use it) and my guides. Everything was pointing me in one direction. I am packing up and heading to Maine to expand my business and work closer to nature. I am not going to be so bold as to say exactly how this will happen because I know better now. I know if I am to do this and work hard at putting it all together it will happen. I trust my gut my intuition to lead me down the right road and to make the right choices. I am not just putting the words down to make people read them, this is how I live. I am shedding the middle-aged attitude and embracing the person inside that lives with no boundaries of age or situations. This is what my intuition tells me, what is yours telling you? Stop hiding behind anxiety and be the free spirit inside with no limitations. Oh you know you want to and stop the excuses, they mean nothing.

Create your own trail.

How do you create the trail you are walking upon? What logs have fallen in the way or what bridges have appeared? Maybe tree stumps have risen in the water to help you along your trail? My trail is much like the one you see with tree stumps allowing me to cross calm waters to a shore that is well-marked. The light filters down and the air sweet with the aroma of fern fronds, mosses and pine being released as I softly step always moving forward on my life’s trail.

OK knock it off this is fantasy land, no this is not real, my mind tells me and you are never going to be walking on ‘that’ trail, not if I have anything to say. You know the chatter always clattering on always telling us we do not measure up to _________. I do not know about everyone else but I am sick of listening to the chatter. It is the chatter on the internet telling you to buy this to improve you because you are not good enough, on the news reporting illusive doom, the incessant dialog that speaks to everything but your true being, the soulful spiritual you who is perfect and always enough. Instead I am now the observer, the trail blazer and the peaceful calm. The mind is the illusion. My reality is the life that is unfolding and just as the path bends, I lose sight of where it is leading me I stay focused on observing everything around me. It is each step. Each step is different from the last.

Today create your own trail. Do not define yourselves, that is the minds doing, just focus on the trail life has put in front of you. Observe and trust your soulful self, it will guide you.